But i was not, the day when i found, it is going to be my birthday, I went into the state of insomnia for 3-4 days (these were days before my birthday). Though it is normal to turn 21. Everyboy on this planet who survives till he turns 21, attains the age of 21, then why was i tensed.
Actually, this tension was not mere tension of my birthday, nor about the party n expenditures... The tension was of about, I m growing mature n old. Though in this century, where a kid, who has not even attained puberty turns adult n behaves like one, i am not supposed to be tensed in attaining my maturity at the age of 21.
This fear, is a big time devil, It eats u up completely. Being a kid, is always fun... But being a human, we are always greedy having greed of no use... When we are kid, we wish to grow up n do things of our own choice. As we grow up, we find how beautiful our life was, when we were a kid. Being a kid, we have no responsibility, no lust, no greed, no tangles... The whole world is ours. Every other kid is our best friend, even when we know him only since 10 minutes. But as we grow up, life becomes hell.
This age 21(इक्कीस) meant a lot to me & especially when I don't even have my Driving license, when i can't drive a motor bike properly & there are lot much to do before attaining 21. Then I realized, It is not mere about attaining an age, it is all about understanding my responsibility, about achieving my goals, living my own dreams in my own way. Even if i had not done these many things till this age, I must understand & take responsibility to achieve it. Although it makes one tense, as the age grows up as the number of people taking interest in you decreases, the maturity starts reflecting up on ur face, Ur hairs starts growing GREY.
But,even then, one must realize attaining 21 is about getting all the rights, we must have as an individual n that too legally. Showing up this world, that i m someone, as an individual. someone, who is not just any other person, but special one...
This thought made me happy... n I finally, moved towards my birthday, happily, with the thought achieving my aim of Proving myself...
N on my birthday.... Ekkiss......finally, 21 ka ho gaya